When you look at my career it’s pretty impressive, right?
Between 1993 and 2015 I created, produced and played 26 theatre productions,
I directed one short film, produced and executed 4 educational projects, wrote a book, ran a marathon, did hospital clowning for 10 years, created a dozen of characters for adult entertainment and created a world-class balloon act.
And there are just the highlights!
Looking back at it, I can’t believe I did all this.
And yet I suppressed I was a high performer. I kept telling the world, but especially myself I did it for the art, for the kids etc.
It hit me when I was a few years into coaching. I read about highly driven people and it was like looking into a mirror.
Perfectionism, feeling guilty when doing nothing, the shame of being too successful, avoiding things until they become problems, not asking for help and missing out on the truth.
I needed to sit down to absorb this.
Immediately I knew why I got stuck and why I stopped my career. It wasn’t the fact that I didn’t like it anymore.
I just couldn’t overcome my pitfalls.
Do I regret giving it all up?
Yes and no.
Knowing what I know now I’m sure I’ve could have done some more beautiful things, but on the other hand, I get to do something I love, just as I loved being an artist and especially being a clown.
I’m especially thankful for the insight that completely changed my life and my business.